Wednesday, 28 September 2016
Paperback's Pondering's: I Almost Quit (But I Didn't!)
This is gonna be a hard post to write, because I'm just gonna be fully honest here. I play up like my experience blogging has been nothing but sunshine and rainbows, but the truth is, these past couple of months have had it's rough patches. And it's important to talk about.
So the truth is, at the end of June going into summer, I seriously considered quitting my blog. Like literally just dropping off the face of the blogosphere, just stop tweeting, stop blogging, and stop caring. I figured, I haven't met any of my blog buddies in real life, so it wouldn't be so embarrassing if I just quit. I want to tell you why I felt this way.
Blogging just felt like a chore to me. I hated having to open up my laptop, sit down for an hour and write when I could have been spending time outside and such during the summertime. It seriously felt like homework during the summer.
I also felt so completely unmotivated. I thought that doing a Paperback's Pondering's every week was getting repetitive, I had no other creative ideas, and I just didn't want to deal with having to be out of the box anymore. Again, it felt like a chore.
So why didn't I stop? It was my sister, actually who told me that it would be stupid to throw away two years of my life for a silly little rough patch. She suggested taking a summer hiatus, but I knew that if I did, I would probably never come back.
What did I do then? I hid behind tags upon tags upon tags because they were easy and didn't require any creativity, because the questions were already made up for me. I didn't have to worry about putting some actual thought in my posts. I have nothing against tags, but doing them week after week was incredibly boring. I didn't care though. I had literally thrown my content out the window.
Now this may seem pretty negative, but the truth is, I'm all good now! I had a true pep talk with myself after my 2 year blogiversary post, when I saw how lovely everyone was and I realized that I felt appreciated in the blogosphere. I felt like people enjoyed my company, and I didn't want to throw it away.
I'm now actually extremely inspired. I've been taking a Writer's Craft course at school which has been helping me tremendously, and I really want to share what I've learnt on my blog, because a lot of us are aspiring writers and I think my teacher's advice could be beneficial to others. I plan on bringing back the discussions, putting out even more reviews, and more importantly, caring again.
I wanted to share this because I needed to get this weight off my chest. Sometimes people think that a break can always help, but for me, that wasn't the case. I had to push through, but now, I am totally ok. This blog deserves better than this, and all of you in the blogosphere deserve better than this. I'd like to thank all of you for the endless motivation you give me, it clearly keeps me going.
Have you gone through a rough patch? What did you do to get past it?
Emily @ Paperback Princess